While you're jumping..

But REMEMBER!:

The truth of this paradoxically interpreted insight is just HALF of the truth!!
Alchemist, the Deep World Magician not just craftsman magician.
Always consult back to the Black Onyx.

A Stranger is Born

A few days ago..
I got an insight I don't want it to be true..
But I sense a grain of treasure out of it..
Something that might solve a great deal of my puzzle parts..

So despite the truth is partial (THANK GOODNESS!!) to the whole truth about the fluid reality
I decide to act on it, start moving the gears..

Thus it's time to (re)consider,

"What is this place?"

Dream Journal #3: High School Romance

This is actually my dream 2 days ago.

Meeting high school friends.. we're older in age, grown up and all but still with more or less the same physical appearance.. at one point I met my (not so) secret admirer - a handsome one (but not my type) who had a crush on me back then, supported by the whole class (of which I was oblivious to it).. and now when we met face to face it's still coyly awkward.. the rest of the class was also still curious about my answer..

He even gave me LOTS of cactus loli - large single cactus plants on sticks - like almost a load of truck! XD Apparently he knew (most likely consulting his friends though) that I wouldn't do the ordinary, you know roses, huh!

So I decided to say it.. finally I gave the answer to W****, ahahahaa..!! But the answer is "No", with the reasons according to my current self: I've got my obsession No. 1 (and 2). Glad for the appreciation, but.. no. Thanks, but sorry no.


[dream end]

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Who doesn't like a dream when some above-average fish has a crush on you?
But I hope next time (better, in real life) I'll get the one I really can say "Yes" to. ;D

Always do things from the heart, they say..

Perhaps that's why my answers were considered 'best' by some askers, because I did answer them from the heart.

But like love, HATRED comes also from the heart and in MANY situations it's NOT allowed to express itself..

And being a highly sensitive person I don't like it when I can't express either love or hate (maybe ESPECIALLY hatred!) spontaneously in any given circumstances.

DON'T LIKE IT. AT ALL.

Dream Journal #2: A Certain 'Ariadne Oliver'

Then several days after the French class dream, I've got this curious one.

So I was a university student or so.. I met an eccentric woman (most likely a lecturer I'd be consulting with about papers etc), old but still somewhat attractive because of her intelligence, quirkiness, almost childlike demeanor but subtle & sophisticated.

Somehow at some point I was watching her life experience: adventure on train tracks (solving a case? finishing a project?), outwitting an evil Haddock threatening her life - like, a check mate! Ha! Epic WIN!!

[And at some point in the dream I felt like I was actually her..!]

[dream end]

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The truth is in real life despite being a thinking person I DON'T do academia. But still this is a nice pleasant dream of surTHRIVAL (WIN!!) so I'll take it as a good sign.

Dream Journal #1: A Happy French Class

Several days ago (okay, maybe 2 weeks already, haha.. too lazy to write) I've got this pleasant dream.

Back in high school when I was somewhat a popular maverick (right now I achieve to be maverick-maverick, ARRR..!!), a pretty, intelligent dork with a solid principle of integrity - which means I DON'T. CHEAT. EVER. And still being able to make friends, helping them doing homework by teaching the how, not doing it for them.

So it was apparently a French lesson, a test.. only 5 questions but turned out it's quite hard even for me. I didn't study much.. I could only expect 6-7,5/10 point.. but I was feeling playful, there's something in the 5th question about "du lait" [either it's part of the question or my answer].. whichever that was I was pretty sure the teacher would appreciate my humorous answer and I'd get 8/10!


Meanwhile as usual once the teacher left for a while 99% of my peers were cheating at each other, even dared to either ask me or offering me answers!! (Secretly I felt being stabbed & feeling like killing them but as usual because of my sensitivity not really wanting to stomp dead others I tried to be polite and refuse all their attempts!)

In short time we've finished answering the test (with me being 100% honest & others cheating), only 1 minute less the teacher would return..

[dream end]

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I don't know why I dreamt this dream, quite curious. I'm forever grateful for all the fun school experience in my life, perhaps this is a good sign! ..only in my current self I'd stay way-away as possible from any complicated friendship!