Le ARRR!! #2

DRATS DRATS DRATS DA FVCK IS THAT LOW LIFE OF A GIRL COULD COIN SUCH OUTRAGEOUS THOUGHT UNDERVALUING HERSELF THAT LOW AND WHAT. THE. HELL. IS ANOTHER MORONIC GIRL CHIMED IN SUPPORTING THAT OBVIOUS DEBAUCHERY?!?!?!!

THEY'RE PRACTICALLY SAYING, "PLEASE, PLEASE ABUSE ME!!" with cheerleaders in the background, "YEAH, GO GIRL, GET YOURSELF ABUSED WOOHOOO!!"  

BLEGH!!!!

OHMYGODDAMNFVCKINGGOD A DISPLAY OF UNBELIEVABLE IDIOCY TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!

I've become SO ALLERGIC to this self-incriminating ignorance by those BRAINLESS inferiors now I wonder if I need to stop lurking the forum altogether - although that doesn't guarantee the people outside that place are better because unless you've mastered intuition like a trained mind reader you can't really know what's going on in their heads.

DEAR GOD PROTECTOR OF ALL THAT IS GOOD AND HOLY,

DELIVER ME FROM WOMEN WHO DON'T APPRECIATE THEMSELVES, NEVER LISTEN TO THEIR SENSE OF DIGNITY, MAKING JOKE OF THINGS SHOULD NOT BE LAUGHED IN THE SLIGHTEST, THROWING AWAY THEIR SELF-WORTH TO A PACK OF HYENAS!!!
AND DOUCHES OF MEN WHO WOULD INEVITABLE PREY ON THEM!!!!

I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY OF THEM!
Even my defender-of-the-weak side doesn't want those particular underdogs, too angry to see their STUPIDITY! Because you know what? Inferiority might be more possible to heal but ignorance is just #@$%;^&#&*#!!
 
CHAIN IS CUT!!!

Le ARRR!! #1

Aand.. I was lurking the forum I used to be active in again and I read something (again) that made my blood boils. How I would love to reply badly:

WHERE'S THAT IGNORAMUS OF A PROFESSOR OF YOURS??
I'LL NOM HIM FOR YOU!!

IN FACT I'LL NOM EVERYONE PUTTING ANY SILLY ARBITRARY AWFUL PLAIN RIDICULOUS EWWWW SOCIAL EXPECTATIONS ON YOU!!!

But I can't do that. I've decided not to return to that forum for good. And guess what, while I might be taking the above poster's side, doesn't mean I would do the same with other posters with the same issue. My concern is 'costumed' per individual. Besides, I do JUDGE others, I put expectations on others despite they could be not the same with those of what ignoramuses think. You can't really predict what my next step would be.

I have no hesitation judging other judgers, PIRATE AGAINST OTHER PIRATES, IT'S THE FREE OCEAN WAR ARRRRRR..!!!

Always do things from the heart, they say..

Perhaps that's why my answers were considered 'best' by some askers, because I did answer them from the heart.

But like love, HATRED comes also from the heart and in MANY situations it's NOT allowed to express itself..

And being a highly sensitive person I don't like it when I can't express either love or hate (maybe ESPECIALLY hatred!) spontaneously in any given circumstances.

DON'T LIKE IT. AT ALL.

Circling the Drain II

Some things on a local news website and pinterest had upset me. Too bad I forgot to pin them (or I might pass them for genuine respect for my nervous system).

NOW this world is really REALLY SCARY CONFUSING OVERWHELMING!!!!

That's why my own instincts are SO precious goddamnit!!!!!

Circling the Drain?

This world HURTS.

How could they? HOW COULD THEY be, how could even there be such slimy monsters? Even more disturbing, how could the other ones make those monsters & their values ACCEPTABLE??! Actually ADAPTING to them??!?

What madness, MAD universe. What's called as common sense has gradually changed, mostly for what I think, strongly feel & intuit, the worse. CURSE this adapting, chameleon-like society! And how DARE you all planting these PARASITES to my psyche??!?!!!

This is not just about individuals. What I sense & deeply detest is the COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS. And not just about the country I'm living in, but the whole planet. It's rotting away.

And I don't want to go down the hell with them, NO sir.

I'm gonna stay here, standing alone, trusting my inner compass only. Listening only to everything originated from within: the soul, the instincts, intuition, every emotions and even impulses. Anything except the outer world's hurtful-unspoken-slickly-penetrating doctrines!

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I guess that's why it's so hard to simply be me. Layers and layers of protection, the ego's work, really, can't be blamed. There's already lots of pollution out there, can't let the innermost of me corrupted.

My cynic/pessimistic side muses, "Is this existence just god's sick joke?" But my Joker Card side, the somewhat more enlightened one, thinks of this from another side of the coin: a 'joke' that's meant to enjoy a.k.a GAME.. which means, those imperfections of this world are challenges.

No, no, NO. Don't interpret this 'challenge' word from the common western perspective which they've used to brainwash the rest of the world (SUCCESS : failure : money : fame : house : car : vacation : perfect family : marketing : selling : promotion : JOB : CAREER : and other dry materialistic toys)!

GAME, as in "Sherlock Holmes: Crimes & Punishments". Challenge, as in "Solving six cases of murders, disappearances and thefts. Depending on how player interprets the clues, they will have different conclusions. Therefore the player can fail or succeed in finding the culprit. He also decides whether he wants to absolve or condemn the criminal. The moral choice the player makes will influence the further gameplay."
Challenges are cool missions, filled with adventures & excitements. With deep sense of FREEDOM as its 'basic operating system'.
Now how about GAME, as in "My Life". Challenge, as in "being me, being true to my values despite the world going loony"?

Hhhh..

Surely I want something with much more sunshine than just this game of "soul survival". Games are always meant to be ENJOYED after all, aren't they?

Back to my inner compass..